Issues to be dealt with between
studfarm and I persist, and reared their head on the Trip to see Foster The People in Las Vegas. Here is my
eMail to him;
There are a couple of issues that have plagued our efforts to establish a homeostasis in our ongoing association, reconciliation, or whatever the fuck it is in your head at any given moment.
That you have consistently and simultaneously led me on with vague references to some actual re-partnership down the road at some nonspecific era (if not epoc), and at every turn never missed a chance to declare all the ways that I'm unqualified to be seen with you much less a significant other again, ever.
As a result you are teaching me to be increasingly cynical in the face of all the nice, expensive gestures you have extended in my direction. These criticisms I refer to that you have been hammering me with, are not helpful suggestions expressed constructively,they're deeply targeted dressing downs of my very identity, profound condemnations of everything I stand for.
For example; the attack on my outgoing political activities, referring to the progressive T-Shirts I wear as some kind of (pathetic) my conclusion of your implied intent) need for attention. Let's take a look at the facts;
1. I'm a Socialist Democrat in a Country that elected Bush/Cheney not once but twice.
2. I am a HOMOSEXUAL, in a State that declared it my Constitutional right to marry YOU, and then had The Mormon Church and your Catholic Church hustle together tens of millions of dollars, launching a successful campaign that manipulated The California Voters to take that simple, but super important Civil Right away from not just me, but you too.
3. I am an outgoing outspoken activist, that was known as "Father Monte" in High School, and was this the day you met me, something you once embraced, not attacked, and I'm responding to the activist outspoken Tea Party and Neo-cons that have
Liquidated our National Treasure, sent hundreds of thousands of our finest men and women into at least one war that was categorically unprovoked and has put you, me, your Nieces, and Nephews, and all those very young people, including,
The Drummer and entire band; Foster The People, that we adore, in debt for, perhaps their entire lives, all the while shutting down local governments, State Parks, Law Enforcement, Closing Schools firing teachers, Scientists, Doctors, Infrastructure personnel across the board, while deregulating banks and petroleum and mining Companies, that have over night ruined the economy, and polluted the planet, and killed millions of people and wildlife, and made those same corrupt corporations full Citizens, giving them rights that have never been enjoyed by you or me. They are doing this with impunity because they control over 60% the media and public discourse, and sophisticated, dignified, achievers, such as yourself have little stomach for the grass roots tedium to even get a fair shot at shaping an intelligent better future. So in moments of frustration I feel it reasonable to express myself.
The need for attention is however very real, but the need is for your attention, for it as a kind interested and horny attention.
Your thoughts?
